Can your unborn twin still have an effect on you a little?

Okay so when I was like 7 my mom and dad told me I was suppose to be a twin. Here's the story:





My mom was a few months pregnant back in 89';. Around the month when the baby isn't too developed. Like no skin yet or anything. Well *it* fell in the toilet when she went to the restroom. She said it looked a little scary. she called my dad and they could tell it was a baby but it also looked like a glob of something (their was no point in trying to save it). so my dad flushed it. to Make a long story short, she thought she was not pregnant anymore. But I was still there.





Okay so you know how MOST twins have that bond. Where they need eachother to be complete? Well that's kind of me. I am searching for something and I don't know what. I latch on to anyone who shows interest in me (friendship wise) but then when I get too close to them I gradually push them away bc I'm never satisfied... I'm not crazy but I feel like I'm living for two people. I have two personalities Im bubbly, outgoing, careless, friendly, ';why don't you like me :('; person, %26amp; then there's shy, quiet, responsible, friendly, serious, don't like me? idc person. And these personalities are combined! When someone is mad at me I have a reaction to not care an ounce and not forgive right away%26amp; at the same time it's the voice in the back of my head saying ';No!! why?? IM SORRY'; pls forgive me. so it's an either or thing. Since I was like 9 (or younger) I felt like I was born to be a lefty. I'm right handed but now, at 15+ 21 minus. I am still like that. I write w/ my left hand and as soon as I think about it... the hand writing doesn't look as good, aand jux worsens as i try to continue.





Like I was saying about the personalities, I sometimes greet everyoone and smile, tell jokes, just loved. Then the next hour I'm so shy it's almost paralyzing. family be like ';Oh finally you broke out of your shell'; and then when I'm shy again they asume something is wrong with me. I have two point of views for everything which makes it hard for me to make my own decisions so my mom or who ever usually makes a lot of choices for me. like ';I'd look nice in these jeans'; then the other side is ';no, they'll bring too much attention to me... I hate attention'; ';One minute I feel real girly, then the next I can't believe I put that color on my nails. Also 50% of me want's to be an actress 50% is shy and don't want to be in the spotlight...sitting in the back of the class is too much but other times I want to be in the middle so i can talk to everyone... I'm stuck in life, Im in college but I have no major bc of the back and forth debate going on. my mom always say, ';you'll find yourself on day'; the problem is I already found myself, and both sides of me know exactly what and who we are but I can't seperate them...they're clashing so I guess one of us will win at the end %26amp;%26amp; last but not least some of you may be homophobes, but honestly one of these two people in me are convinced that they are bisexual and then weeks later the thought of being bi-sexual is gross and dosnt have no feelings watsoever about girls...not even the least bit.





I don't know... A lot of ppl don't believe in the supernatural so I'll probably get you're crazy or you're jux bi-polar. But I'm not any of those things... this is real and I'm aware of it all. It does sound fictional but it's not. Im sorry I wrote so much.... It seems as if I was just venting and this question turned into a whole news paper. Honestly I don't know why I even posted this question... there's no diagnois for this if it is my twin. I can jux see the cmnt some may leave *u need an psychatist* u need help* maybe I do... idk. I just dk.Can your unborn twin still have an effect on you a little?
You are trapping yourself on that dilemma, you give your thoughts the outmost importance.


My suggestion to your problem would be to quiet your mind and stop over analyzing your life.





If you like to read, read a book called the power of silence by Carlos Castaneda or Journey to Ixtlan.


Your mind is trapped by your ego, your desire to have an answer to a question that shouldn't exist.


Look to become a Zen and live happy, find inner peace, quiet your internal dialog and start enjoying live by living in the here and now.





If you are a movie guy, watch this movie called What Da' Bleep do we know about.


It would give you some answers but the most important advice I can give you is, find inner peace.





I wish you and whomever reads this inner peace, love, health and harmony.Can your unborn twin still have an effect on you a little?
You don't need a psychiatrist( MD) but I think it might help you to see a therapist so you can talk this out with someone who won't judge your feelings.Since you have 2 different views for everything, you need to talk this out and learn how to feel confident in making your own choices in life.